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what else was there to do: [10 Mar 2005|10:30am] my brother and i are so awful. the other night my mom slipped on the steps and broke her anke; i heard the shriek and he heard the crack. after she was taken away in an ambulance, we discovered that she changed our previously delightful answering machine message to one in which she irritatingly mispronounces our last name. we crinkled our noses and rolled our eyes and then remembered that mother dearest had a broken ankle and was in the hospital! and then we laughed!

update: [05 Mar 2005|11:06am] 01 dropped out again 02 living at my aunt's house 03 was offered full time work at the children's shoe store but going to look around a bit i am making the choices that are right for me at this point in my life.

SWEET TEENAGED (human) LUST: [27 Feb 2005|02:04am] how much can i spill on the internet. how many years will it take for me to shake my head at the uncurrent events of february, 2005. who even is this boy! 15 years ago, I: 1. was a menace and got into lots of trouble. 2. felt really jealous of my new baby brother. 3. made my mom sleep with me at night! 4. sang all the time. 5. was REALLY cute. 10 Years Ago, I: 1. was best friends with fiona! hers was someone else but she invited me on her annual trip to toronto and to playworld. so there, sarah cleland. 2. i was a huge riot/goof at school and a sweetheart at home and would never have friends over, terrified that my split personality would be discovered. WEIRDO. 3. was in grade two. 4. learned how to spell restaurant! 5. had a pink attic bedroom. 5 Years Ago, I: 1. was the ugliest i've ever been in my life. 2. wanted my period and a boyfriend! 3. did very well in school. 4. went to the saftey patrol dance. 5. was the teacher's pet. 3 Years Ago, I: 1. began highschool. 2. manipulated a boy into liking me for the first time. 3. got wasted! 4. became a truant. 5. made some new friends. 1 Year Ago, I: 1. had braces. 2. discovered pat. 3. went to central. 4. felt overly unique. it was stupid, believe me. 5. thought about the future a lot. Yesterday, I: 1. well it's three am. so on saturday, i went to work. 2. took a nap. 3. ate three dinners. 4. decided not to go out after all. 5. WENT ON THE INTERNET. Today, I: 1. will be doing homework. promise. 2. will be seeing a certain someone at 4PM. 3. will take a shower. 4. will be nice to my family. 5. will go to bed early. Tomorrow, I: 1. have a guidance appointment to drop my second period course. 2. need to go to the women's clinic for a follow-up. 3. am making a hair appointment after i put my cheque in the bank. 4. need to get my shit together. it's monday afterall! 5. am handing in a not-yet-begun essay to my history teacher. yours truly, 2D mmg.

the other day a light went on: [13 Feb 2005|05:38pm] the summer before highschool was fun; i had three best friends and frizzy blonde hair and an open heart. gazing out my den window i'd see a boy with tall bleached spikes wearing a suit and what seemed to be a guitar coasting a lowrider up my street. "i'm so happy we moved to this neighbourhood! i am so excited for september!" i saw him at the folk fest too. living at fourteen seems magical now, almost! last season i began to notice someone downtown. one day i was walking dundas st. with darting red eyes when i encountered jordan for the second time. the first had been ten days short of a year ago today when he introduced himself on a bus as jebediah. i swear to god i fell in love. well he didn't remember (not that i asked) and in a bold move i later sat cross legged with him and his dog in victoria park while he waited for his girlfriend of two days and i 'killed time' before work. now it's february once again and two weeks ago i gave my virginity, which was the right thing to do. jeb has skinny bleached dreads and plays the violin. i'd love to go on but it's hard; you'll have to make a few assumptions.

announcement: [07 Feb 2005|04:16pm] i'm not a drop out anymore!

hello you have reached the gelinas family: [26 Jan 2005|12:46am] "as previously stated" i'm killing time (more like doing time) for the next week and a half. my dad, three months after heart surgery, is completely renovating an old house on queen's ave. medicine is truly that good? i thought he'd be sitting in bed for at least this long. my brother's camera (that i DROPPED) is ready to be picked up only two months later. i wonder if he'll ever let me use it or if i'll even have the nerve to ask. my mom lost her job this afternoon and things will be fine. i'm not writing about my issues at hand.

it's so tacky to list the music you're listening to: [25 Jan 2005|12:59am] fantastic something - if she doesn't smile marine girls - on my mind my bloody valentine - slow new order - ceremony the fall - c.r.e.e.p. the comas - moon rainbow in a playlist they went (yesterday); i know the tricks of wearing out songs. i ordered my first item on ebay tonight. now it's obvious how people can become addicts; do they call it a win in a real auction house or could it be yet another revolution of the site? i happen to like the coat; it's brown and long, sort of like a sack, with two big pockets on each thigh and a very nice collar. i feel like i'm consuming a lot these days. maybe: winter brings forth a shared humility in people: runny noses, windburn, chattering teeth. dealing with seasonal depression. walking around with my face contorted by strong flusters doesn't really bother me; the guy on my right has pants that are soaked to the knee (why do i say humility it's just life) i love canada but the rest of the world is still on my mind.

what was i thinking: [22 Jan 2005|11:28pm] i am most definitely, undeniably an optimist! and all the while i've tricked myself into thinking i see things in a negative light. lately i've just been killing time for the next semester. i saw a clockwork orange; it'd be pretty awesome if people dressed with colourful wigs and slim fit suits in real life. i saw my friend rae anne; we met one day at prince alberts and on thursday i went to her house. her boyfriend's cousin was there: riley scott! i knew him when i was young and he looked pretty much the same. i think i acted like a real creep that day. her boyfriend asked me what type of music i listened to and i really couldn't answer! granted i was stoned, and in general i am awkward and reserved but come on. usually i can put together a coherent sentence. it seems like my brain is out of practice!

as previously stated: [10 Jan 2005|09:49am] my new years resolution is to get a life. ! ten days have passed and i have shown cleavage, had a few drinks, laughed fairly loud, taken part in an emotional conversation, seen my best friends, read three novels and developed new (if not mind shattering) notions. not bad; what's next?! any and all participation in this world that attributes slight satisfaction is an execution of my intent. i've set myself up for triumph!

apparent insecurity: [16 Jun 2004|01:53pm] i don't wear sandals because i have ugly feet; i avoid showing my upper arms at all costs due to other dissatisfactions. i want to be able to wear my cotton tshirts in peace without announcing my discomfort to the world through wet underarms and a red face.

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